Old Beginnings and Romantic Questions...

Funny how things are... After posting that I decided to look back into my old blog and here is the first post from May 2nd, 2002:

"Ok so yes... I have finally decided to break the bonds of laziness and create an online journal. Who knows how long this will last and if it will remain here at his site... but at least it is an attempt and a beginning. So now I bet the question in your mind (or possibly one of them) is what would burn inside me so passionately that it would make me desire to post it up so that everyone can read... MY response... LIFE. So now... I do admit that I do not overflow with wisdom nor am I the most interesting person, but I am me. And that is what I present to this journal... myself.

So now where does one start? Do I do a classic thing and start from the beginning or from the end. Or can I just foolishly design a random day to begin and randomly share my life in a very Memento-esque style seeing if my life can be pieced together like a puzzle. Well I do not know... that is a question I will have to ponder for a bit. Until then... I guess the answer is I will not start in that typical fashion as I shall stall the beginning and start with this. So if you have request you can try to send them my way. If you need something send it my way... Have a complaint and want to bitch about it... have a compliment... send it my way... Soon you shall discover my brutal honestly with the world and myself and shall discover how I crave honesty... So know you always have a chance to respond."

I guess not much has changed in all those years... perhaps I should have just copied and pasted that as the new intro but where would the fun be in that.

Careful, careful here comes the rant...

And to jump right into things I guess I might as well post the burning questions on my mind on this wonderful Mother's Day. A day to remember that we were all once blessed with life from another being.

Funny how troublesome our hearts can be. I honestly wasn't sure how I would feel when I started to get out again. That whole 3 year semi-abusive relationship left a big mark... made me feel broken and as if I simply wasn't worth it to others, I was damaged goods. But in the last 9 or so months, I let myself be that person. Somehow those chains were thrown aside and though meeting new wonderful people I have become to realize how wrong I was and how important it is to keep your life surrounded by good people.

And what wonderful people I have found. I am living it up and loving it all. I will even admit that one might have even caught my eye (although I think he is more wanting to be friends which is totally hot with me too). It is amazing how I can go from losing all my friends in a crazy relationship to rekindling friends and meeting some amazing new ones.

Here is to the beginning of an eventful life...